Better to have loved and lost than never loved at all

Unless it's sugar, maybe.
Well, detox it is and detox it needs to be.
It isn't a first, but would be great if it were a last.
I need to detox. badly. eating cookies and donuts for actual meals instead of real food.
It's outta control!
I'm looking forward to doing this under the direction of Jessica Campbell with food foundations.
21 days starting Monday the 21rst.
I'm as big as ever. I hate to think I'll go down #30 or more and be right back here in 6 months but maybe that's better than just staying here or potentially going higher?
God, grant me the serenity, to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things that i can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
What a great prayer. I may have to cling to this a bunch.
The truth is, sugar does a have an incredible hold on me. It is my master. I want to be free. I want to not be under it's hold again. I cannot go it alone. I know there is hope. though it seems impossible at the moment.
I'm getting a year membership to our Kroc today.
I do fantasize about living in a poverished country where exercise is ridiculous because life is exercise and food is sparce and non-gmo and advertising doesn't exist or screens at all for the matter. Life is just that, life. Not as complicated. Closer to dependancy on our Creator. "Yes husband, the life expectancy is half there what it is here." but is it really living if its rush rush rush,eat eat eat, feel sick, underslept, busy busy, ungratified? Maybe half a life gratified is better than a whole life unfulfilled? Thats enough ranting for one day.